Dear Isaac, As your first birthday approaches, I can’t help […]
As your first birthday approaches, I can’t help but reflect over the last year and all the changes that have taken place. A year ago, we were anxiously awaiting your arrival. It feels strange to think back to that time. In many ways, I already knew you, but we were also strangers. We didn’t even know if you were a son or a daughter! We had no idea how our lives were about to change.
I will never forget the first time I held you. I remember being completely overcome with the deepest love I’ve ever felt. You, my son, had mama’s heart from the beginning. I fell hopelessly in love in an instant. Even though the room was full of family who had gathered to meet you, in that moment, it was just you and me. You were the most beautiful, most precious baby I had ever laid eyes on. (and still are)
The last year has been full of firsts. Each and every one has been an adventure, and one that your dad and I have enjoyed so much. It has been amazing to see the world through your eyes, to watch you discover the things around you. As we get closer and closer to toddlerhood, I find myself getting excited for all the things we’ll learn together.
As much as you’re learning, I have to acknowledge you for teaching me so much. Not just about being a mother. That’s just trial and error, instinct and experience. You’ve taught me much more than that. You’ve taught me to be kinder to myself. You’ve taught me to love and respect my body, for it is where you grew, and that is a beautiful thing. You’ve taught me to go with the flow. I can’t plan everything, and sometimes you just have to laugh and move on. You’ve taught me to truly savor the little everyday moments. Most of all, you’ve taught me about a love so deep that nothing could ever take it away. I know you will never know how much I love you. Perhaps someday when you have a baby of your own. But truly, these moments we’ve shared this year, you’ll never remember them. But I will. And I will cherish them always.
You, my precious boy, are my greatest gift. You are the most incredible blessing God has ever given me, and I thank him every single day for letting me be your mama. Every night I thank God for the day we’ve had. I pray that he will keep you safe and healthy, and keep you from harm’s way. I pray that he will help me be the best mama I can be, and that he will bless you.
You’ve made life so much sweeter. Everything has been made better because you are here. I truly feel like my life began the day you arrived, and I’ve never looked back.
Isaac, I love you more than words could ever express. I cannot wait to see what the next year will bring. Happy Birthday, sweet boy.
All my heart,