Next week will be my last Adventures in Motherhood post, but that’s not the only change happening around here! Shawn and I have decided to move east to be closer to our families. After seven years in Utah, this is a huge change for all of us! As a kid, I moved around a lot—my childhood memories are spread between New Jersey, Illinois and Georgia. I have always wanted my kids to have a place to be from, in contrast. I’m hoping that North Carolina can be that place for them.
The prospect of moving with four kids—and a husband who isn’t home much—feels like starting a long race. I know I’ll get to the finish eventually, and it will feel great when I get there. But in between, there are so many steps I need to take. An overwhelming number of steps. I can’t even think about all the steps in between, so I’ll just think about the first steps and hope momentum can carry me forward through the pain and exhaustion sure to come.
With all that’s on my mind lately, my brain has become a scrambled mess, even more than usual. Today, I took Deacon to his 4-month well baby visit. I drove to the wrong doctor’s office and was about to walk through the door when I realized what I’d done. Back in the car and over to the correct doctor’s office, where I arrived 10 minutes late. Then I signed Deacon in as “Graham” for his appointment. Maybe I’d be less scattered if Deke hadn’t woken up hungry at 2 a.m. last night?
Update on Deke: He is over 15 pounds now, close to double his birth weight! He’s average to large for height and weight, but he looks bigger than he is because his head is in the 98th percentile. Six-month size clothes are getting snug, and Deke’s feet are busting out of his footie pajamas. Developmentally, Deke’s getting into some fun stuff: laughing, cooing, smiling. … His movements are still a little wild and crazy, but Deke is holding his head up pretty well, rolling from front to back, and grabbing toys to put in his mouth. At the doctor’s office today, the mom next to me was checking in with a tiny newborn baby. It was incredible to realize how big Deke was next to that pink little guy, all curled up in his car seat. I have to be grateful for how far we’ve come in the last four months! Both of us are sleeping much better and enjoying our time together. I love the personality on this little man.