At one point in my life—probably when I didn’t know myself well—I would have said I was “type A.” My mom, being truly type A, set a pretty rigid standard of a well-kept home. She sort of wrote the book on keeping things neat with kids (and a pup), so I’ve always been used to a similar level of clean. No matter what time the dinner party would end or how tired she may be, I am pretty sure she always makes sure everything is returned to her version of normal before turning the light out.
Today, I personally would describe myself type Z … getting as far away from strict and structured as possible, but watching her for years helped shape my definition of the words clean, dirty and acceptable. Even if I have loosened up in other areas, an appreciation for a manicured home has followed me into my first year as a mom, and not surprisingly, my little one doesn’t exactly share my sentiment.
For months I kept things on lock around here. Before she was mobile, it was easy peasy to keep things tidy. Now that she’s a newly 1-year-old, she’s on a constant mission to knock down, unfold and make messy. She’s into everything, and I honestly can’t keep up! To make it more interesting, I am due with our second baby in a few weeks. I finally hit a point today where I chose the mess over my overwhelming desire to keep things as so. I rolled out the mat, grabbed a handful of toys and let her have at it (while I used her highchair as a makeshift desk to pay bills).
I have noticed a definite shift the past week or so as I have entered the full-term milestone. I have seriously slowed down, and I don’t really come back up too often. I pretty much stay in this state of being wiped out, which I guess is understandable, and it has taken a toll on the few standards I am loyal to—gym, eating actual food, clean home, etc. I’m ready to have this baby, but in the meantime, I am trying to not worry about how clean my hardwood floors are or if Bellamy is going to eat dust and just do whatever is easiest. It’s not going to get any easier any time soon!